I'm not ready. I don't want this. I want to give up on it.
But I can't, I'm not allowed.
All I have is my body and It's no good.
I just stared at the cup with my hand in front of it shaking like crazy.
Really, I just want to be like everyone else. I'm SO jealous of them.
Why do I have to KILL myself strengthening my body just so I can friggen breathe. I should be able to take it for granted.
I want to be like you.
I'm just so tired of disappointments.